Progress

I feel like I am making steps, baby steps but steps none the less, towards feeling like I am not a visitor in my own life. I feel like sometimes I just settle because I think something or someone will make me happy. I know I have high expectations for myself and I expect a lot of others, but the compromise is just as disappointing as not ever meeting my expectations. People have told me that if I don't lower my expectations I will always be disappointed, but I feel like I would be selling myself short by constantly doing that. Why should I compromise? I know life can't be planned, Lord knows I learned that through experience, but there are some goals that I would like to meet regardless of when that happens. The fairy tale isn't automatic, and prince charming may never come, but what if my story is in a completly different book?

Here are 3 things I am greatful for today:
1. That I'm confident enough to know that not everyone has to agree with me, but they do have to be respectful of my opinion.
2. Seeing my hard work pay off at my job, and that I work in an environment where growth is encouraged and praised.
3. Yoga class. My downward dog may not be perfect but the fact that I have the physical and mental ability to move and stretch is a blessing.

Purpose

I am starting this blog for a number of reasons:
1. I read blogs all day and I thought...hey, why not try one out. I almost hope no one sees it.
2. There is a lot of change in my life right now and I feel sort of out of control.
3. I find myself complaining about stupid (or not so stupid) things everyday and I know it could always be worse. This is a personal reminder I am ALWAYS greatful for something.

When I was younger and I would whine about things my Dad would always make me list 3 good things in my life. I never realized it at the time, but I've come to do that internally all the time. This is basically a way for me to remember what I'm thankful for. So here is my current state of mind.

Complaint- I am frustrated that it is Saturday night and I don't know anyone in this city to call if I wanted to go out. I have no network of friends yet and I'm losing my patience. My life is up in the air.

3 Happy Things:
1. I live in one of the most beautiful cities in the country, where I am able to drive an hour and go on an amazing hike with my great dog, Serena.
2. I met great people on my hike today. I am glad I am the type of person that can talk to a wall and people seem to like me.
3. I have friends in Texas that will always be there for me and happy to see me.

Ok, that wasn't so hard. I am going to try to post whenever I'm down in the dumps, which comes and goes a lot more lately. If anyone reads this, you should try my theory....what's the worst that can happen?